the zoo

yes, finally a book in my hand and a couple minutes downtime leaves me enthralled in what I have just read. Reading a book has been a long time goal of mine as I could never find the right book for me. This one however is different in a good way. It is called the zoo and is about of course a zoo, as if it wasn't clear. In one sitting I have read about 12 chapters. This was about a week ago and haven't had the time to enthrall myself back into wonderland. Its going to be a tough couple weeks ahead as it is basketball playoff/provincial time but hopefully I'll be able to sit down with a hot cup of cocoa and a book in hand and enjoy it once again.

Where I'm at

I'm feeling pretty down right now as this year has not started the way I wanted to. I couldn't do the lion dance at Chinese new year as most of you know and now my patella tendenitis has flared up pretty bad as it hasn't been good for 5 years or so. What makes it worse is that I had slightly teared the patella muscle on my left leg quite a while ago so my knees will never be good and my back will never be good because of the car crash and I'm beginning to feel lost in the pain and heartbreak. I'm gonna keep working and see where it takes me but hopefully it will get better as I don't think it can get any worse.

Small Victories

The other day my coach was talking about small victories and I didn't understand the concept until he explained it. You can't have a big victory until you have those small little victory that leads to your eventual end goal. I think this will help me this year on my journey to the black belt test. It will let me take pressure off myself and enjoy the small victories as if they were big victories. Whether it be the pushups/situps I accomplish in the day or the kind deed I did for someone or eating right I can say "that was a victory for me and I'm proud." I think this is a great concept for everyone to learn as it really does make sense at least it does to me. I'm excited for this year and hope to learn a lot about each and everyone of you.

Back in the game

Its seems like a long time since I've been in the head of lion and I guess it has been. It felt really good except do RV the multiple times that we stopped and chatted. I should have brought this up in the meeting but I get much more enjoyment and learn a lot by doing the dance rather than talking about it. I can't get better if I don't practice and my definition of practice is not talking at each other which it seemed like that was happening. When we all stop we seen to argue on who's doing what and who's wrong and who's right and that makes me angry cuz I get less practice and we all lose valuable time that should be spent practicing. At least that its my opinion. Anyway I felt really good in the lion head and hope it continues to get better from here ok out!

Training partner

So another week gone since the grading and another week closer to the next. I have already started thinking about next year. Me and Sihing Tymchuk have teamed up as training partners and we are ready to tackle this thing head on! That was one thing I did wrong this year.I didn't have a training partner to keep me going so I lost focus. I think this will be good for both of us. I can learn from him and he can learn from me. I an super excited for the coming year.

Back from the dead

So it been just over a month since my accident and im feeling pretty good, not the way i used to but close. When i was out i realize how much i hate not doing anything. It sucks watching everyone else train and me sitting on the sidelines thinking about training. I really fell out of my routine due to my physical abilities but i am beginning to regain strength and find a way to prove myself to myself. I think that is the biggest thing is that i don't realize my one potential an i think that is where i went wrong this year in i ho chuan. This is what i am going to focus on next year. Believing in myself. I wouldn't say this year is a complete fail but i did not achieve the things i wanted to. I do still have a few months to regroupe myself and carry it into next year. So its full steam ahead for me!! Choo choo

A long bumpy road

This year for me has really taught me a lot about myself and about the people im around everyday. No it has not been smooth sailing for me by any stretch of the imagination in fact anything that could go wrong went wrong but those wrongs led to so many rights. I had the chance to learn the lion dance and really enjoy that and from peoples reaction towards it makes me enjoy it more. I had a chance to be a part of the dragon and put myself out of my comfort zone in demos and performances. I realize that i think too much and never completely engage myself in one thing and that is something i would like to change next year. I think that this years team has held me in the their grasp and never let me fall too far away when i was not physically able. Everyone of u has changed my life forever and im sure u will continue to change it in the future. I know that my numbers are not good and 100% blame myself for that because there is so much more i could have done to accomplish that. I find that whenever i am not physically able i come back with a regret of not doing more and trying to push myself to the limit and then back off and go back to not doing what needs to be done. Next year will be redemption for me but there are still a couple more months left those year where i can redeem myself. I've learned i need to say focused obviously the task at hand and that u can't do it alone, u need someone to push u and and sometimes u need a shoulder to cry on. I want to thank all of u team members for that and hope to see u all next year.